Though I know in my heart that I’m not the Captain
Late at night on my knees I ask God to save him

Lord you promised not to give me what I cannot handle
Would you let his sweet light be snuffed out like a candle

Going through the motions day by day
Tense, unsure, can’t find my way

A fever? A cough? Is he okay?
Oh please don’t let it be today

Though I’ve nurtured and cherished and called him my own
Through it all he is Yours and only mine on loan.

Though I’ve made God my helmsman and put faith in Him
I get scared and impatient when the journey grows dim

I grab for the wheel wildly striving to win
Then I remember His promise and give it back again

Lord help me finally turn it over to You
Help me to know it’s all I can do

For you are my Captain my light and my guide
I can only get through this with You by my side

So send in the Comforter from His place up above
To hold me, enfold me, and fill me with love

And now I can cope with whatever life brings
My Captain sustains me, my grateful heart sings

My first poem. Written for Wesley.